i spend way too much time and energy on the computer so i'm done with blogging for a while.  if you want to know about my life just ask me.

i REALLY hope we do well

SNOW DAY!!!!!!!  shit.... what about costumes? our first dress rehearsal is wednesday... which is tomorrow!!!!! eek!

i was thinking about that night.  i had no idea what would happen by the end, anything was possible.  it was a nice night but the sun has to rise sometime.

i dunno if i'll keep putting entries here or what but i decided that i like xanga right now so ya... i'll be there

i don't know what i would do without music. 
it makes my emotions seem so much more real. 
i don't think i've turned my stereo off in like three days because i can't stand the silence would otherwise be ringing in my ears all the time. 
i also covered my whole mirror with random song quotes, i just sat there with my dry erase marker and wrote whatever happened to be playing. 
ben folds is my new favorite.
i think i might end up making CDs for x-mas presents for people because i won't have time to make scarves for everyone. (in case you couldn't tell, your presents will be late)
love to you and you and especially you



When you lose a part of yourself to somebody you know
It takes a lot to let go
Every breath that you remember
Pictures fade away, but memory's forever

i should really just give up on this fake happiness thing

the past few months i've just been giving up - on my family, on school, on doing things right.  there are a few things that mean something to me that i can handle but it's like everything else just doesn't matter to me anymore.  pointless shit that my life is full of.  i don't want inspiration or to have a positive outlook, i just want to get rid of all the shit in my life that i don't want.  i should get a new attitude....
screw that

i'm going to bed, that way i don't have to think

so i missed the beginning of the new year because after the McClellan's came by with their champagne i felt really sick and crashed... i guess we learned that laura has a low alcohol tolerance.  hopefully it was just the bubliness because i've never had a problem with feeling sick before.  yeah so that was at like 10 and i slept until noon today =/
so if what maddie said on her xanga is true this year isn't going to be all that great.  sigh.  oh well i guess i'll make the best of it
i have so much stuff to do before school starts.  shit.
anyway, i love you all and i'll see everyone soon